Tuesday, April 18, 2006


In a way, growing up means you miss some freedoms.
Sometimes it makes me sad.
And yet, I really did not have a lot of freedom.
I turned 18, was already in college and got engaged shortly after.
This meant I did not have a lot of time to work, and the money I had went to dates with Nick and money for when we got married.

No traveling to exotic destinations for Spring Break.
No buying expensive shoes.
Then we got married and our money went into buying a house.
And then we had kids, which not only meant a loss of money but a definete loss of freedom in the sense that we could not pick up and go without two kids or finding a babysitter.

And not that I hate having a family.. and obligations.
Sometimes I just wish to have one day.. where I don't have to find the babysitter... where I can go where I want... where I could shop til I drop.

Of course right now I would be too tired to enjoy it anyway.



SupComTabz said...

I'm not usually one to do this, but can you please check my blog (The Blinking Cursor) for a special message about the Hope Hotline (a sucide hotline). Any help you can offer and/or help spreading the word would be greatly appreciated.

agent713 said...

The previous message is spam. (It was posted verbatim on Pamela's blog)

Melissa, I'm not sure what to suggest and I can't say that I've been in your shoes. I don't think that what you're feeling is entirely unique though. I'm sure there are others going through the same thing. Have you tried posting on the board? They might be able to give you some ideas on how to handle your feelings. All I can offer is a big cyber ((hug)). Tomorrow is another day :)

Pamela Lynn ~ flutterby7 said...

Melissa, I agree with Heidi, I'm sure you are not alone in those feelings. Maybe someone on SS would have some suggestions. I'm sorry I don't though all I can do to maybe help is send some {{{HUGS}}} your way.
Pamela Lynn

Mel said...

Heidi and Pamela - thanks for the concern... I mean, it is not bothering me that much.. but enough I want it out there. KWIM?

And don't worry about the "spam".. I have talked to supcomtabz before.. so that is alright. She is on the blogging chick blogroll.